I know that you're not going to like this (ooh, isn't it great to get an email that starts off like that?) but hopefully it's not as bad as I keep thinking you're going to think it is. That makes no sense. Anyway...
Cory and I have decided to find a place in Portland to live together. We've been talking about it on and off, and you've said that you don't think it's a good idea, but after all this time of thinking about it and weighing the bad and the good about it, there seems to be more good than bad. Monetary convenience is one of the good things, yes, even though I know that it's not the only, or most important, reason; as it shouldn't be. We both know that living together is a precursor to marriage, which we've also talked about as far back as the month after we started seeing each other. It's not something I'm eager to get over with, like I was with Mike. I'm not in love with the idea of a nice wedding like before. I've changed a lot since Minnesota. And Cory is a totally different person. He's perfect. Well, not COMPLETELY perfect, but perfect enough for me to be able to say with lots of thought behind it that I want to be with him forever. But you probably know that already. It makes it WAY easier that you like him too. :)
I know you're not going to write back and say "yay! That's the best idea I've ever heard!" but at the same time, I don't want you to hate me, which I don't think you will. I haven't put in my 30 days yet, but we're searching for the rare dog-friendly apartments in the area and Cory's putting in applications for jobs and stuff. (He'll probably end up commuting for awhile back to Corvallis, which sucks, but that's the way it goes...)
Anyway, I just wanted to let you know what's going on before it happens. Don't worry, we're definitely not rushing into anything, and I'm confident that this is a good thing to do.
I love you!
Megan (and Cory) You said "living together is a precursor to
marriage" Uh-Uh! it's a POSTcursor to marriage! If you
guys know you will always be together why don't you just get
married? Why don't we plan a nice little wedding....just
family and close friends....and GET IT OVER WITH!? There is
a darling house that can be rented out in a big woodsy park
in Bend for parties, etc. Or you could even do it here if
you wanted. I know it's inevitable (and I am SO HAPPY about
that!) but why not do it in the right order? MOMMY
Do you love my daughter and want to be with her forever? I
know what she wants....what do you want? Are you also aware
that if you hurt my daughter and mess up her life I will
personally hunt you down and kill you? (I'll torture you
first.) I know that living together is simply accepted
these days but you can't blame me for wanting security for
Megan. And I've lived long enough to know that marriage is
a form (though imperfect) of security and security is as
important as love. Even after going through a divorce I
know this to be true. Sincerely, THE PERSON WHO GAVE BIRTH
TO THE PERSON WHOSE LIFE YOU'VE PUT YOUR LITTLE SELF IN THE
Phew, huh? Actually, I thought it'd be worse. I'm willing to bet that her second email will scare Cory but he's got nothing to worry about. It's just a mom doing her job. And it doesn't change anything about my decision. I just wanted to let her know, that's all.
Today is much the same as yesterday. I've been in this little office with the light off for almost two hours now. I'll be in here longer than that before I'm done. Then I'll be in the sample room (with bare feet since I didn't wear comfy shoes and the floor is concrete) hanging up sportswear. Ooh, goody. At least I've got a big project. I hate those stupid little projects that take me fifteen minutes.
Tonight Cory is coming! I hate this long-distance thing. Have I ever mentioned that? We're going to see the Rose Festival fireworks downtown, possibly with Brad. They haven't met yet. They ought to.