January 20th, 2004

S&G 1

(no subject)

Last night I dreamed that I was in a musical, and I couldn't remember any of the words because we'd shelved it for so long and had just started production work again. I kept thinking "dang, I hope I don't have a solo, or any lines..." During the rehearsals, a tape was made for a radio station to air, and everybody else started recording it without me, and I was bummed once I got there and they were almost done.

My interpretation: I'm worried about going back to school, because I forget how to be a student. And I'm worried that I'll have to take classes over again just because I'm afraid I won't remember any of it.

Now I'm starting to get worried that this isn't what I'm supposed to be doing. I don't know if the major is right, or if it'd even matter for me to get a degree when I just want to stay home with my kids. Worry worry worry.