November 23rd, 2004

S&G 1

(no subject)

OK, new plan.

Because Lynn is gone this week and the owner is there, I'm going to sit down with her and say "I don't want to go over Lynn's head or anything, that's not my intent, but it's really really important to me to be a good employee and I really want to make sure that I'm living up to expectations. But I get the sense that that's not happening yet, and I'd like some advice, if you have any."

I think I will also tell her that I'm struggling with figuring out whether I'm still adjusting or whether the job just isn't a good fit for me. I don't want to come right out and say "should I put my notice in?" but that's what I want to know, ultimately.

So anyway. Wish me luck, because I'm so bad at confrontation and being assertive that it hurts me just to think about talking to people about this. I feel like such a baby. I guess this is just another part of growing up.