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OK, new plan.

Because Lynn is gone this week and the owner is there, I'm going to sit down with her and say "I don't want to go over Lynn's head or anything, that's not my intent, but it's really really important to me to be a good employee and I really want to make sure that I'm living up to expectations. But I get the sense that that's not happening yet, and I'd like some advice, if you have any."

I think I will also tell her that I'm struggling with figuring out whether I'm still adjusting or whether the job just isn't a good fit for me. I don't want to come right out and say "should I put my notice in?" but that's what I want to know, ultimately.

So anyway. Wish me luck, because I'm so bad at confrontation and being assertive that it hurts me just to think about talking to people about this. I feel like such a baby. I guess this is just another part of growing up.



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Nov. 23rd, 2004 07:31 am (UTC)
Good luck! I feel your pain.
Nov. 23rd, 2004 07:39 am (UTC)
I feel like I dug myself a hole and I'm afraid of heights so I'm having to force myself to climb out of the hole even though it scares me. I'd almost rather dig more and just hope that I'll come out in China, where I can hide. :D
Nov. 23rd, 2004 07:51 am (UTC)
one thing I have learned being a supervisor at work, people will always find something to complain about, it is human nature, it is you who have to decide weather or not you believe what others are saying, and what you are going to do about it. I am not a confrontational person, and therefore I usually take all the crap and live with it, but the end of september was an interesting month. I went to work and there had been some issues with one of the lunch women and a few of the noon duties, being unappreciative, and rude etc.. so I tried to deal with the issue at hand without having to cause a stink, but it didn't work, everything back fired, I got called named, told I was a liar, all kinds of really great stuff, but I knew she was full of shit, so I stood my ground. She left due to other actions she took that were inappropriate, but I chose to deal with it instead of continuously taking the garabage. So it is ultimately a choice you have to make, are you not fit for the job because someone else tells you they think you aren't, or are you not fit for the job because you truly feel you can't handle it. They hired you for that position for a reason.
Nov. 23rd, 2004 08:05 am (UTC)
I'd like to think that they hired me for a reason, but unfortunately I'm pretty sure that reason is because there was nobody else. :D I mean, it's nice to be the best person for the job, but it's not nice if your competition is all 17-year-old juvenile delinquints or something. I think a lot of it is their perception of me, and a lot of it is them setting me up for failure, and some of it is that I'm not assertive and it's hard for me to take charge. So part of it is me, I know.
Nov. 23rd, 2004 08:13 am (UTC)
Oh stop thinking that they are setting you up for failture, why would they hire someone to fail? It costs them money. They only thing you can do is your best and then take what other people say and learn from it. I think i was born to be in charge, which is a scarey thing for me. I am not normally comfortable with that and yet here I am a supervisor at work! Holy smacks, how'd I get there!? Every situation can be handed with class. Speak to your supervisor and tell her your concerns, she will either help you overcome them, or she'll tell you that you don't fit the part, either way, you already know whats coming. It isn't a failure, but a learning experience, you learn who you are better.
Nov. 23rd, 2004 08:19 am (UTC)
I know it's a learning experience, it's just hard to see it as that right now. Kind of like when you break up with someone and you get paranoid about things. :)
Nov. 23rd, 2004 08:20 am (UTC)
So take a deep breath, hold it for 10 seconds, and then when you are relasing it through pursed lips say, "ffffuuuuuuuuuuuuuuucccccccccccccckkkkkkkk itttttttttt"

Nov. 23rd, 2004 10:42 am (UTC)
Good luck! I think you're being really mature about it.
Nov. 24th, 2004 11:53 am (UTC)
I hope all went well Meg!
Let us know :-)

And happy Thanksgiving!
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