After I posted yesterday, I got another phone call from the lumber company asking if I could go in on Friday instead of Monday. I have the interview with the other place today, but they told me they didn't mind me leaving for that. Even though they don't know it's an interview. :)
So I'm a couple of minutes away from leaving and now I'm starting to get nervous. I'm excited too - finally I'll be bringing money in. I've been feeling guilty for a long time and now I have no reason to anymore.